When I was around ten years old, I decided four things:  By the time I was 22, I would (a) be living in New York City (not for forever, just for half a year!), (b) have a husband, (c) have a baby, and (d) have a job……..

Yep. Those were my ten year old dreams and ambitions.  And unlike most kids I didn’t change my mind about what I wanted.  It was always the same.  I was completely infatuated with New York City and it never really wavered.  I dreamt  about walking down busy streets next to the person that I loved while snow quietly fell around us….all. the. time. It consumed me and I honestly believed it could happen.  12 years was soooooo far away! Unfortunately, I didn’t realize how fast I would actually grow up..Peter Pan should have prepared me for that one.

On December 15th, I turned 22 years old…and I am here to announce that I live in California, am not married, don’t have a baby, and have not even finished college, let alone started a career. 

I had known this day was coming for awhile, I had been watching the days go by in my planner over the past couple of months, seeing the date “December 15th” slowly creep closer, taunting me..and yes, it came, and it went…as all dates on a calendar do.  At first I thought: “this isn’t so bad, you’ve known for the past few years that you wouldn’t fulfill any of these dreams within your ridiculous little kid time frame, don’t be bummed.  Don’t dwell on it.”

But then my feelings ended up getting mad at my thoughts for trying to be the rational one in their relationship and eventually my thoughts just angrily stormed out on my feelings…

so instead of being rational, I start to feel like I’m in one of those cliche chick flicks where the guy and the girl love each other but some kind of conflict occurs, so, (usually the girl) gets on a plane to leave….And anyone who has ever seen one of these movies knows what follows:  The guy rushes through the airport, disregards security protocol, and sprints for the gate.  He’s gotta get to her before he loses her forever.

I’m not sure I’ve ever seen an ending to one of these kinds of movies where the plane isn’t stopped, and the boy ends up broken hearted and alone forever.  It just doesn’t happen…Not even in Liar Liar or Parent Trap people. 

But my cliche chick flick is different, I’m not chasing a guy, I’m chasing my dreams.  They’re leaving and I’m afraid I wont get there in time.  I’m gonna sprint after them as fast as I can, shoving people out of my way James Bond style and causing a scene.  When I’ve finally reached my gate and breathlessly tell the stewardess that he or she has to stop the plane from leaving, that it can’t go because something on it is too important for me to lose,  he or she is just going to look back at me and say “I’m sorry but you just missed it.”  And I’ll just stand there…not knowing exactly what to do, or what comes next.

Here’s a story:

Have your dreams ever come so close to coming true that you could literally reach out and touch them?  Close enough to touch them with the tip of your fingers, but just out of grasp?  No, I haven’t personally experienced this, but I do know someone who has.

Monday night, not one, but TWO phone calls from the same important number were missed by a very optimistic and hopeful girl, thus ensuing in a frenzy of nerves, excitement, and anxiety.  For three days following, that girl and her family sat by their phones waiting and hoping that they would ring again.  Because oh, how great would it be for those dreams to come just a little closer??  Close enough to wrap her fingers around it and hold on verrrrry tightly. 

But no…it was not the right time for her dreams to come true.  A phone call never came, and instead she had to watch her dream pulled away from her finger tips and placed in the palm of someone else. 

I guess things like this happen sometimes…But you know what? If you ask my opinion, I don’t think that this particular story is over…No, I think that this dream will reappear at some other time, in some other form, yielding the same results.  All that girl has to do is keep on dreaming that same dream.  =)

Today I had to drive to San Fransisco and back within a three hour time frame.  This is the second time I have had to do this now for a class this semester. I didn’t even use my GPS to get there, and I’m pretty proud of that.  =) But here’s what I think about some other things…

1.  Trying to make a right-hand turn in Downtown San Fransisco at 1:00 in the afternoon is almost impossible. Pedestrians…everywhere!

2.  Drive aggressively!

3.  25 dollars to park for thirty minutes?  No, no, really, that sounds totally reasonable!

4.  Jasper John’s artwork is actually pretty cool.  His flags and Numbers series rocks. 

5.  I find skyscrapers inspiring and beautiful. 

6.  The weather is nice. 

7.  I feel like I’m in an episode of Gossip Girl when I get my backpack checked at the counter and have the option to check my coat as well. 

8.  the complete lack of tolerance that my body has for caffeine is almost funny.

9.  One Direction’s new CD is making my lose my voice.  BUT!…Happily singing at the top of my lungs in my car where no one can hear me is the besssst!

Yep.  Those were my thoughts. 😉  Hope you had a good day. 

I LOVE this scene!! I’m a Christian, and while watching this scene, these bible verses about running a race kept popping into my head.  Here’s what they say:

Hebrews 12:1-Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus…

Acts 20:24-However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace.

Today I turned in my application for graduation to the Registrar’s office at San Jose State University. I was so nervous that the woman behind the counter would look over my paper and say “wait a minute, there is an error here” or “You aren’t eligible for this because you’re missing something”..but instead she just looked at me, smiled, and said congratulations.

For a while I didn’t think that graduating in two years as a photo major would be a possibility.  There are four sessions that happen over the course of the academic school year at SJSU.  Fall, Winter, Spring, and Summer.  Classes are available depending on the session, some are strictly for spring, some are strictly for fall, and only certain classes are held during summer and winter session.  Most students who major in something normal have the chance to take classes for all four sessions of the year.  But art (photo) classes are not offered for winter or summer sessions.  This makes completing our units pretty difficult when there is a cap of 16 units on the students right now due to impaction.  But somehow I did it.

 I have 18 units left to graduate and I will be completing them all in the spring.  Planning my schedule today left me feeling a little suffocated from the thought of taking 5 activity classes (classes that are project based, a lot of time consuming work) and 1 lecture class. But I know that it’ll be worth it when I finish, and I’m really looking forward to some of them! Advanced lighting, history of photography, and 3d design should all be pretty interesting. 

Anyway,  I can’t wait to finish school.  It feels like I’ve been a college student forever, and while I’ve learned a ton of things that will help me in my career later on, I am soo ready to be done. =)

As usual, I haven’t blogged in forever.  But that’s ok because I’m gonna make up for it right…..now.

So far since school ended, Summer hasn’t yet shown up.  For the past three weeks of my “summer” I’ve been waking up early and going to SCHOOL and work every day.  I’ve decided that this is acceptable though because in July my summer is going to explode and I can’t wait. 

• The day after school ends I’m going to visit SILVER for a few days in Arizona! I am really excited.

•  A few days after I arrive home I am going to participate in the happiest 5k on the planet.  The Color Run.  It’s gonna be so much, especially since I’m doing it with a bunch of friends.  

• An hour after the color run is over I’m riding down to L.A. with my friend Cassie and the next morning We’re flying to Nashville with her step dad to bait hooks, throw out lines, drive trucks, skin bucks, and all that good stuff. Oh, and we’re also staying here:

• The day after coming home from Nashville, I will promptly pack my clothes/things I need back up and head off to camping with my family for the week…where there’s snakes and stuff.

This is gonna be fun guys.  

OH! In addition to all that in July, I’m also throwing my sister a surprise-ish bridal shower this weekend.  (She’s knows its happening, she just doesn’t know anything about it!) annnd She’s getting married in August.  So those are two things I’m also looking forward to that don’t fall into my crazy July.  I’m excited for everything. 

P.S. Right now this country song is my fave.  It’ll probably only last a week until I hear my next favorite, but listen!! And ignore the first part,  He doesn’t have a music video yet so I had to go with what I could find. =)

So far today has been…chaotic.

#1.  I woke up late, which is kind of bitter sweet.  The down side is that I am turning my alarm clock off in my sleep because apparently…I don’t want to get out of bed.  And the kind of cool part is that I wake up naturally anywhere from thirty to ten minutes before my class is supposed to start.  So far I haven’t been late to my morning classes because of sleeping through my alarm, but I have finals coming up and one starts at 8……seriously..sucks. I’m nervous that I wont wake up for it since this seems to be turning into a recurring theme of mine.

#2. Since I rushed to get ready this morning I didn’t realize until I was walking to class that something was terribly wrong with my neck.  I must have slept wrong because it has a major kink in it.

#3.  I ran..k..I walked fast to 7th and Santa Clara in 80 degree weather at ten o’clock this morning to have photos printed.  He couldn’t print them because I forgot to do the layout correctly.

#4.  After class I went BACK to the photo store…decided to drive instead.  And this happened.  Yeah. I was late for my next class.  But don’t worry.  I definitely made it…with ten minutes to spare before it ended. Success.

#5. The guy at the photo place told me that my print was going to cost 45 bucks.  I almost choked. On nothing.

#6.  Fell asleep in my favorite class.

#7……………I COMPLETED MY FIRST CLASS OF THE SEMESTER TODAY.  It’s DONE! =)  I am SO happy that I don’t have to deal with it any more.  Tonight I will also be finishing my last group of art history homework.  I still have the final for that class…but still.  NO HOMEWORK! This right here makes up for all that other shenanigans today.  I’m excited. Really excited.
And now I need to get to work.

Oh. P.S. A few weeks ago…my shopping cart rode an escalator all by itself.  I was pretty enthusiastic about it. 

When I’m not working or in class, I’m studying or doing massive amounts of homework..and that’s ok because I actually like some of it! But…it’s still homework and sometimes I get distracted and lazy.  This is where my music comes in to save the day.  Music helps me stay focused AND it’s super fun to listen to. =) I can sit at my desk or the table and sing my little heart out and read and write and draw until it’s all finished. I was doing “Song of the week” posts a while ago and I’m gonna continue eventually..probably in about a month and half cause that’s when school ends.  Right now I am way too busy to do something extra on a regular and consistent basis than my school work.  Anyway, since I’m not doing song of the week for a little while longer, I thought I would share my homework playlist that I am currently listening to! Here’s a couple warnings: #1: These songs are girly…what do you expect?  I’m a girl.  #2: I love country music, so if you don’t..you may not like some of these songs. Here it goes..Ten songs that I like to listen to while doing homework! Enjoy..Check them out on iTunes or youtube.  They’re really good.

1.  What a Day For a Day Dream-Lindsey Ray (I heard this song in 2010 and LOVED her cover of it.  It took two years for me to find out who sang it but I can finally listen to it over and over again.)
2.  Hurt Like Mine-The Black Keys
3.  Ours-Taylor Swift
4.  Wishing Weed-Jason Reeves Ft. Colbie Caillat (Don’t even bother listening to the version without her in it.  The song will lose some of its amazing factor.)
5.  Now or Never-Stars Go Dim
6.  Some Nights-FUN (this band is so…..fun to listen to.  I got to see them in concert last June or July.  They opened for Panic At The Disco and they were so cool to watch.  Super high energy!…listen to the “clean” version of this song. It’s better.)
7.  This Old Boy-Craig Morgan
8.  Fine By Me-Andy Grammer
9.  C’mon- Panic At The Disco and FUN
10.  Hurts Like Hell-Daniel Rinaldi

I feel like I haven’t blogged in years…but its actually only been 16 days.  😉

And since I’m obviously the center of the Universe I just wanted to tell you guys not to worry and that I’m alive.  I’ve just been busy, like losing my mind busy…and I’m happy to announce today is the LAST DAY of busyness for 11 Days!!!! Spring break for me starts tomorrow at 6:00 PM.  I.can’t.wait. 

Usually spring and I aren’t the closest…I mean yeah we’re acquaintances and all and that’s cool, but Fall and Winter have always been my bffs.  However, recently Spring and I have been hanging out and I’m actually liking it.  Lately I’m happy when the sun is shining, I love looking at bright colors and  despite my fantastic explosion of seasonal allergies, I’ve been dragging my feet to class trying to stay outside as long as possible…which usually equals about 10 minutes a day.  I need some vitamin d in my life soo badly and I am determined to get some over the next ten days!

So to start spring break off.  I am going to the Hunger Games midnight showing and then driving my sister to the San Fransisco airport at eight in the morning, then going to work, and then going to LA with my two good friends and I will be there for the weekend hanging out and helping Cassie move into an apartment.  After that I get to spend a whole week relaxing at home and doing absolutely nothing. I’m so excited.  What are you doing for Spring Break?