Ohh hi. Two weeks ago, you were talking to me about who might end up being in your wedding party, and I just sat there kind of smiling.  Because you more than anyone I know deserves that…And someday soon, you’re gonna meet a guy who just happens to love Jesus and have thick legs, and he’s gonna be head over heels for you…And I can’t wait for it. I can’t wait for you to have an amazing husband that spoils you and treats you right along with beautiful little babies that I get to spoil.

Ever since that conversation though, I’ve been thinkin…and here’s what’s been in my head.

13 months ago exactly we said bye to each other. You were leaving for Texas and I mean, really…it was no big deal. Two years in Colorado, Six years in Arizona…The truth is, I never thought we needed a face to face friendship.  A long distance friendship never seemed to affect us negatively, so what could possibly happen in another 7 months, right?

…after the end of a literal week from hell, a week of doubt and questions, a week of hurting others and barely holding it together, I called you.  I’m not even sure what we said to each other exactly, but like it is with most best friends…even over the phone it’s easy to tell when things are being left unsaid.  And in that short conversation I knew you were happy…relieved, and that unlike most people involved in the situation, you knew it was right just like I did. In that moment, whether you knew it or not you gave me the little extra courage I needed to keep going and stick with my choice.

This year since last June hasn’t been easy…but without you here, I know for a fact things wouldn’t be as good as they have been.  So…thank you.

Thank you for being the kind of friend who tells me that if I ever had to get in a fight with someone, you think I’d win.

Thank you for celebrating the fact that I got stress blisters on my fingers to match yours.

Thank you for literally taking my face in your hands and wiping my tears away on the nights that I can’t seem to hold it together.

And thank you for being the kind of friend who also tells me to get it together and not to be sad because “We aren’t doing that tonight.”

Thank you for always being brutally honest. When it’s easy to hear and when it’s the last thing I want to hear.

Thank you for being the kind of friend who tells me I should give the shirt that I’m wearing to Savers…Or better yet just throw it away cause Savers probably wouldn’t take it.

Thank you for loving my nephew like he’s yours too.

Thank you for being the kind of friend who’s willing to fail at partner yoga with me and Becca for hours.

Thank you for always being patient and gracious, when I definitely don’t always deserve it.

Thank you for helping me realize that it’s ok to actually have fun and not worry all the time.

Thank you for being the kind of friend that loves to just be at my house and hang with my family.

And thank you for believing in me on the days when I’m not capable of believing in myself.

You’ve been so strong for me in so many ways over the past twelve months and I can only hope that someday I’ll be as strong for you if you’re ever in a situation where you need it.

I love you Silver!

Love,

The emotional best friend.