Hi baby. Today I’m exhausted, and it’s fitting..because a year ago today I was exhausted too, only for a much different reason.

October 13th, 2014…you were born. At an ungodly hour of the morning, and I was there to see it all. 

You were perfect. Your little fingers grabbing at the air and your blue eyes blinking in the lights. I loved you so much then.

And I love you so much now.

You’ve killed me over and over again in the smallest ways.

The first smile you gave me.

The first time I made you laugh.

The first time you reached for me to hold you.

The first time you put your head on my shoulder to snuggle or the first time you let me dance you to sleep in my arms.

  
I. Love. You.

And I will love you just as much when you’re ten.

And I will love you just as much when you’re 20.

I can’t wait to see you grow up. To see you find what you’re passionate about and chase it.

I can’t wait to watch you be a big brother to other siblings someday. I know you’re going to be great, because your mommy and daddy are great big brothers and sisters too.

And I can’t wait to have a real conversation with you and hear all the thoughts that go through your mind. You’re getting so close! 

But for now I’m content to watch you learn, and smile, and laugh, and chew on things that don’t belong in your mouth, and steal the hearts of everyone you come across. You will forever and always be my first nephew. And that will forever and always be a special thing. 

Happy birthday baby! 

Love,

The crazy aunt who is slightly maybe a little tiny bit obsessed with you.