Month: January 2012

Dear Baby

NOTE:  I am NOT pregnant. 

Today a baby threw up on me.  So naturally, the thought that followed was to write MY baby a love letter that I can share with it in the future.  Here is what will probably be the first of many.
Dear baby,
While you may not exist yet, I think of you, long for you, get excited about you, and ache to have you often.  I can’t wait for you to come into my life and change my world.  You will be perfect.   I’m not sure I can even express how much I crave to hold you in my arms tightly and safely against me.  To cuddle you.  To kiss you a million times and then kiss you a million times after that, and after that, and after that.  To give you baths.  To feed you.  To hold your little feet in my hands and kiss your toes.  To watch you grow and get the cutest fat rolls on your arms and thighs.  To hear you cry and laugh and make baby noises.  To watch you discover and learn.  To see you grow strong and crawl and walk.  To hear you say mine and Daddy’s names.  Your daddy and I, (while I may not be sure of who he is yet) will love you unconditionally and forever.  Mommy is a clean freak and does NOT like messy dirty germs but I will love you when you’re messy.  I will love you when you throw up on me.  I will love you when I change your diapers.  I will love you when you’re sticky.  I will love you when you’re smelly.  I will love you after you have discovered how good cake is.  You will be so loved, baby.  You will have the best grandparents that any baby could have and you will grow up having the most amazing aunts and uncle possible.  I hope and pray with all my heart that you will know just how much you’re loved from the moment we meet.  My heart aches to have you, to fall in love with you, and to learn how to be a good mommy for you.   I know I still have a while before that can happen..but it’s ok.  I have a lot to learn before you can rock my world…and until then I promise I will be anxiously waiting, learning, growing, and preparing for you until the day you arrive. 
I love you always,
Mommy

Sometimes…

 Ok, let’s face it.  All the time!…I think about my future and look forward to the things I haven’t experienced that will hopefully and eventually come.  Marriage, sex, babies, maybe a puppy, and owning a HOME! Owning a house is one if the biggest things that I am excited about when it comes to my future.  I’m an artist (photographer)…and the thought of decorating my house and painting and making things look pretty and rustic and casual and elegant all at the same time is thrilling.  My absolute ultimate dream would be to build my own house exactly the way I want it..but I’m tryin’ to be real about that one.  Just thought I would share my longing! =) Here are a few pictures of elements in different houses that I love. 

Pictures via Pinterest!


 Ummm Blue counters! So cool!!

Weekend Nostalgia

A few years ago on my way to school in the morning I was listening to the John Tesh radio show on 101.7 the beach and he said something that blew my mind.  He said that Monday is actually NOT the worst day of the week.  No.  It’s Tuesday because the happy feelings of your weekend have completely evaporated and the reality of school or work or whatever it may be, have officially settled back in.  Guys…it’s totally true! (yes, I know that Monday was a holiday this week so technically    today would really fall into the Monday category…but still!!)  I am so feeling the Tuesday slump or whatever you wanna call it cause my weekend was good and I’m ready for the next one! Thursday I went home after work and hung out with everybody at my house.  Friday I rode with my mom to drop my little brother off at winter camp, cleaned the house, and then went to outback for dinner.  Then me, my family, and the bf watched Super 8 together.  Saturday my sisters and mom and I got up early and went with our friends Janine, Sue and Corinne to find Amanda’s wedding dress here in San Jose.  She found one.  It’s pretty.  I’m excited.  Sunday was church and red lobster and Monday was absolutely NOTHING! I love not doing things…And I know that makes it sound like I’m lazy..but I swear I’m not.  Occasionally I just like to have those days where I sleep in early, wake up and take as long of a shower as I want, and then lay on the couch completely submerged in blankets all warm the rest of the day.  It’s like therapy!  I can’t wait for next weekend to come.  I might be taking my sister’s engagement photos and I’m really excited!

New Year’s resolution

We’re ten days into 2012 and I’ve been thinking a lot about New Year’s resolutions.  Usually I don’t like when people make new year’s resolutions because I feel like they are pointless promises that people make to themselves and end up breaking them a few months later.  I don’t think that I have ever made new year’s resolutions before because I knew that I would not be able to stick to them.  That being said, I decided to try it this year and see how it goes! Here’s a few that I have made.  =)

I promise to…
Drink lots of water
Be a good student
Be a good daughter and sister
Be a good girlfriend
Be the best photographer that I can be
Take care of my body
Exercise
Read my bible more
Pray for OTHERS more
Grow in wisdom
Save/spend my money wisely
Get more sleep
Blog more
Experiment with new styles and dress better
Smile more!
(Me and my friend Cassie on New Year’s Eve)
 
So there is my list of little goals and promises to myself this year.  I’m going to try hard to stick to all of these.  We’ll see how it goes! What are your New Year’s resolutions? Feel free to share!